Like… Too Scared to take a step in any direction
I’m too scared to choose what’s next for me, professionally that is. I have all this noise in my head around jobs, working, careers, what it means to be professional, how to make money, how to make the most money… I think there is too much.
You have to network to build connections and that’s how you get places.
You have to have a personal brand to tell people who you are
You have to be skilled so you know how to do a job well
You have to continue learning so you can grow in your industry
You have to be an expert in your field so people will seek you out.
I don’t know what part of me, what skill of mine will make me money or the most money. I’m contending with so many opposing thoughts…
“You should do something that’s fulfilling, so you can enjoy working.”
“Do something your good at so you won’t have to work too hard”
“Find something you can do that’s in demand so you can make money”
“Learn something new, that’s valuable so you can be in demand and make even more money.”
“Find anything you can do that won’t stress you out too much.”
“Find any job that doesn’t require you to do work outside of the office so you can have a life unrelated to work.”
To me, it feels like the next choice I make must be perfect, so I don’t have to go through this process again. That would be ideal, but it’s stressing me the f*ck out. I know that my next job doesn’t have to be the one I stay with until I’m sixty-five, but I am really tired of working so hard in trying to figure out what’s best for me and then working equally as hard to continually make money & to work that hard until I die.
I don’t want a job that I have to worry about outside of work. I do not want my job to be my entire identity. I want to do something I’m relatively good at, that gives me enough money to live comfortably. I want a car and a space of my own, places I frequent as a local, several hobbies, live in a city that allows me to indulge in my interest and a group of people I love to share these things with. I do not want to be the best, I just want to do my best and have that be good enough.
